Old Friends

So I'm taking it easy tonight because exams are starting in 5 days and I just feel like I deserve a nice break before I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown for 5 days straight. Just went to the little "grocer" on campus and got Teddy Grahams and I sat down (well laid down) to watch 30 Going On 30 starring Jennifer Garner and it suddenly occurred to me that this movie is from 2004 and it just brought back all these flashbacks and memories.

I remember seeing the movie with one of my closes friends at the time, Rebecca. Bex and I were pretty much inseparable for a good five years before she discovered drugs, sex and alcohol. I remember being at her house all the time and spending Hanukkah with her family and her bat mitzvah which was so special. And thinking about her got me thinking about the other friends I don't speak to/haven't really given any though to since I was younger.

I think that if I had Facebook it would normal/possible to just send her a message or write on her wall, but since I don't I feel kinda awkward emailing her since it's been so long. Part of me thinks this is both hilarious and sad because we used to be so incredibly close so calling shouldn't be awkward. But part of me finds if very sad at the same time because for me, losing a friend from childhood feels like losing a part of your childhood.

For anyone who is reading this and feeling the same way about a friend, or friends, don't let my lack of strength deter you from reaching out to someone who you were very close to. Chances are, they miss you just as much and are too scared to reach out.

Wow this is probably my deepest post yet.